Its been so long since i blog because most of the time I blog only when Im super unhappy and I have no where to go.....
Unhappy has beomce part of me lately... from work... relationship and family...
I start to wonder did I made a wrong decision, or it is because of the chi bai company Im in?
Relationship has no been going too well.. we are still lovely dovey... but I felt that it has changed.. and then I thought... is it me who has changed?
I really cant tolerate spending my off days rotting at home for another few decades if I am to be together with him...
I cant go out with the others.. and since u don wan to go out with me...
loneliness has begun to develop in me...
Shop alone... eat alone... watch tv alone.........
Because you don wan to go out................
The struggle between life and love....
FML....
Saturday, July 18, 2009,9:17 AM
my boyfriend today whole day weird weird ever since i went blood donation n i complain to him about our behviours n stuff.. thn pas few days also got say la.
n got those like wan to stop seein for awhile kind
thn he jus send me a sms
"i felt that i hv did u wrong, and i hope u could forgive me if my insenibility caused u to be unhappy...
i know that im not the type of guy ure looking for, i don mind u criticise me, make fun of me or wadeva.. i onli hope to do my best for you.. i hop eu can take good care of urself because i cant always be by ur side everyday"
I know he love me... but im afraid.. its honeymoon..
he will like.. scacrifies for me.. he save.. to spend on good food for me coz he know i like to eat.. he know i need a phone.. he buy for me.. he know i will anytime hungry.. so he bought snacks n put in my fridge without me knowing i onli knwo when i ask my family who bought it he don mind travellin from amk to my hse.. jus to accompany me thru the night.. n go to wrk e nx mrning.. when i had nightmares at night.. he will smile n hug me.. n ask me the nex day if im stil hving nightmares.. i criticise him.. vry smelly.. he buy deodarant.. i say his complexion vry cui.. he put salt on his face... lemon juice.. jus to get rid of the acne i complain he always wear black.. he went shoppin with me.. n bought clothes which i say nice.. but he dont like.. n i didnt even know he took it.. until i saw it at the counter.. he allows me to trim his eyebrow.. althoug the blade is painful on his skin .. coz his hair vry thick..
Saturday, June 27, 2009,8:41 AM
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........ a sincere care and concern from a person who accpeted u for who u are... taking you for what you hav given...loving you s he sees ur soul instead of what you hv protrayed.. worth much more than any amount of money could buy.. or any beauty that could satisfy.. isint it.. " 26
Monday, June 8, 2009,10:54 AM
WHY
i dono what happen to me... am i really like dis... is this what ive changed into... or am i running away.. living in denial..
why have i become someone i dono..
where is my courage for facing the reality...
or am i being too materialistic because of reality...
where is my outwardness.. decided to keep quiet for peacefulness??
why am i being such a useless indecisive being..
why am i procrastinating...
why am i wasting time slping...
why have i pick up a habit i hve kicked...
why...
where is is my self control... for evrything..
where is my stand??
why have i gone back to square one..
Monday, May 25, 2009,10:18 AM
there are few who reali undrstands me...
what are my laughters n smile for..
why am i being so mischievous...
why do i heck care so much...
why am i portrayed as strong..
Saturday, May 16, 2009,8:28 AM
HOW HOW HOW!!!!!! Ritz Carlton called!!!! - Lobby Lounge - All day dining restaurant - Room Service - Executive Club Lounge - Fitness Centre
these are the job post...
i wan to call william!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i scaredddddddddd
SIAN need to buy new matching suit.. coz mine worn out... PAIN leh.. so ex.. should i tailor made??? but no brand :(...
haiz....
I CANT BEAR MY TO PART WITH MY BROWN HAIR!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 14, 2009,8:55 AM
FULLLLLLL
Didnt go school AGAIN!!!!!! today... but went to do project... brain storm till i mental block.. when sabrina asked me to type those we have brainstorm into report format.. my pupil dilated n i stare at her in surprise.. " U TRUST MY ENGLISH!!!?".. han xiang burst out into laughters after i said that... coz previously they were laughing at me "expertise".. :P..
went to TCC.. tot can settle my las day stuff.. end up ivan nt wrking.. and schedule nt out too... went slack.. and walk around.. and ask meng out of kitchen to talk... nt bad ar.. he can slack.. hahahahahaha...
adeline.. knock off 10 mins late.. haiz.. we always do free labour..
saw her n candy at a corner.. n i tio shock and super worried.. i walk there.. they also don wan to tell me what happen..
ans she smoke 2 cigerette!!!! a total of 3 today!!! :(...
abit heart broken leh.. see my friends sad then i duno what happen.. but end up i know la.. hahahaha..
went to SMU tcc.. thnks daniel!!!!
GUESS WHAT DID I DRINK?!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!! BERRY OREO!!!!!!!! hahahahahaahhaha!!! jus cany deny its so far.. my most fav drink in TCC... e taste is just so gang gang hao.. and full of bliss.. when i slurp e cream and e drink... hahahahaha
In a short while.. its gone..
after slackin a while there.. and close the tcc... we went to have steamboat buffet!!! at tian tian... damnn full.. but i don think i eat alot.. althuogh adeline keep torturing me by feeing me.. stuffing my bowl full of food.. hahhahha
i ate non stop as usual.. until i cant stuff anymore..
2 rounds of these.. and we are down... hahahahaa potato wedges and berry oreo fault la.. hahahahaha...
anyway its damn funny.. .coz we tried to tke as muc as we could so that we do not have to walk many times.. gei kiang stack n giap... adeline drop my drink!!!!!! LOL.. evrybody stares n laugh... when we reach our table.. prawns drop from her plates.. and e cuttlefishes and stuff fall on e table.. too full ardy.. hahahaha
she laugh at me cos i used my hands n grab evrything n throw into e soup jus like the machines u saw in arcade.. hahahahaha...
enjoy my night today... it made me forget some of the unhapiness and let me reali think of things.. friendship is stil impt.. therefore i will stil hold on to it..
my angers.. are gone.. :D
Wednesday, May 13, 2009,6:27 AM
:D
Tml shall be a different day.. as i got my answer already..
shall no longer wait.. shall no longer dream...
it ended for me.. i guess.. :D
,5:57 AM
A random song
wrote a random song in less than one hour while i think of u.. LOL...
e scene i had in my mind is kinda funny...
its reali how i report to work.. LOL.. look at other or look on e floor.. dont look into bar..
sian.. honeymoon.. onli 2 days.. and there its gone again.. all thanks to my mouth..
I can jus shoot pple in the heart quite accurately to make them face what they wan and to reflect..
now.. we are just FRIENDS.. abit sad la.. but then we are nv tgt b4..
should i wait or should i forget..
its a chim qns for myself..
but i can sense ur feelings are fading..
so wads the pt of hanginin...
yet still.. i wan to try.. one las time..
Thursday, May 7, 2009,10:46 AM
pitiful vaccum
HAIZZZZZZZZ... MELISSA!!!!!!
bad habits come back again... LAZY TO WAKE UP.. SKIP LECTURES!!!!!.. As usual... i got nagged by mommy and daddy...
mommy knows i have been talkin on the phone daily until vry late at night.. and she teased me " ask ur boyfriend to rush u to slp and wake u up for lesson!!! if he cant make u study.. then he failed to b ur boyfriend.. "
-.-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
since when i got a boyfriend.. walao..
Im jus talking to " oreo " LOL!!
well.. working today is rather fun... Ivan havn approve my resign but then I try to work 2 days per week.. if i reaaaaaaaalii cant cope.. i will leave..
love ZIE max.. she is damn cute although she always bully me..
anyway.. i don reali like e it when sue disturb roy about.. who to choose.. jus don like it..
and worse.. all he do is smile.. ARGH.. WHAT AM I ?!.............
mayb he jus thinks that it doesnt matter.. or he doesnt need others to know his feelings...
duno la.. i kick e vaccum today.. coz its being irritating.. wire so damn short!!!!!
i know im jus being jealous..
sometimes i even feel that i should jus forget about this.. since im going to leave sooner than any one of them...
MIX UP FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAK LA.......
I DUNO I DUNO I DUNO I DUNO............................................
Am i jus being too playful???
or wad?????????????????????
argh... why do i feel so uneasy...
afraid of losing smth???
or afraid of losing???
What i want.. and what i feel for... how to balance?
DUNO LA freak..
Tuesday, May 5, 2009,11:30 AM
today
Aint feeling that well... and i think i got gastric flu... stomach ache for a few days alrdy.. but stil went to wrk.. i'm loving tcc so muc that Im so sad about my las day.. but then.. i have to do wad i have to do.. so as nt to be that irresponsible towards my project mates..
i think alot.. about me n you... thinking.. if u are not the one should i waste time n effort for it.. but how do i know if u are the one or not..
and i heard and can sense somebody might hv feelings for u.. thus my heart sank.. way back home isnt that good..
i weak when it comes to hurting a friend... therefore i tot of giving up.. but thn..
time n time again.. ur replies onli send me disappointment.. i tolerate.. n try to wait..
this time tears have come.. but i stil hope to stay positive.. n see wad can be done..
its true that im haunted by the past.. my past... and im enlighten by a friend.. wad matters is now.. n nt the past.. nt much even e future..
Im tryin.. so even if i fall.. at least.. ive tried b4.. :D..
-berry-
Saturday, May 2, 2009,5:20 AM
DAMN LONG LIAO
wa piang its been a super long time since updated my blog..
i dyed my hair.. and duno is superstitious or wad.. mom had been sayin that i dye hair will sway..
then reali.. i kip falling sick.. and today.. randomly got fever again.. not swine flu la pls.. and i bite too hard eating " YU PIAN MEE FEN ".. i crack my tooth.. 3rd from e back.. while playin with it with my tongue.. half of it fall off.. i got to see how rotten it is la.. damn er xin.. i brush evryday leh.. but duno why it rot til lidat.. other teeth doesnt seem healthy too.. Going to dental real soon.. he might even pull out e other half.. and i reali bo gey liao lo.. :(.. 19 onli..
i think i need a few thousands for my teeth.. though i no need to put braces.. but i need to FIX them.. haiz..
well.. always wanted to post about TCC..
first 2 weeks was hell for me over there.. as i felt unwelcome.. and alone.. but then slowly.. pple strt to talk to me.. and i began to be more talkative as well.. and now.. i love that place..
:D..
alot of teasing is going on... as if like some match making agency... match til like spider web..
i have wonderful colleagues and i reali strt to develop feelings for them.. its good la..
my fav drink from noughat MS.. become BERRY OREO!!.. i always tot its disgusting until candy let me try..
Its a mistake to add choco icecream to berry oreo.. i think i will nv add ice cream to it animore.. hahahaha!!.. but then its stil taste good.. because............ :)
i jus like to see him do bar :D..
k.. i don wan to think about relationship stuff.. coz will end up no where too.. friendsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....
but why does his smiles and irritating remarks kip ringing in my mind.. ARGH..
friends friends.. friends onli.. mus tell myself this evryday :D..
sch reopen and i had to go bac to dancing.. and thn projects are piling.. cant wrk that often.. so yea.. i think will slowly forget abt it.. :(.. but well.. at least i was damn happy before..
there is this guy.. omg.. slp liek log.. call him duno how many times also cant wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha but he;s cute la..
another one.. mian bao chao ren.. always make me laugh.. but at e same time giving me chills from his MOOD swing..
anyway i damn happy now coz things are getting better btwn me n hairi..
carolyn candy and ade.. :D.. love them la.. its always happy to see them wrking.. with me..
my management are loveable as well.. sean n zie.. hahaha damn fun pple.. :D.. i think they are the most playful staff in tcc..
anyway i love it there.. and i hope i will nt hate it.. i duno wad i talkin abt.. bye..
Tuesday, March 24, 2009,5:32 AM
Trust you
A wonderful song.. A wonderful singer..
Do you know that Im still waiting? :)
Im silently waiting.. you might not know.. or will nv know..
But I'm happy like that..
Because if its mean to be.. You'll be back..
If its not.. Someone else will turn up
hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni naze hito ha kizutsukeau no naze wakare ha otozureru no
Flowers dance in the wind, rain moistens the Earth… If everyone in this world want to live together, why do they hurt each other? Why do they separate?
kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada itsumo kono kokoro mannaka ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara shiniteru yo mata aeru to I’m waiting for your love
No matter how far you go, you’ll still be in my heart. With that tender smile, I get buried and held in a fragment of you… Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together, I believe we’ll meet one again. I’m waiting for your love.
I love you, I trust you kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii I love you, I trust you hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no hanasanaide
I love you, I trust you I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me. I love you, I trust you be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other, so don’t let go.
sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara
Who has seen the world’s end? Who informed us of the Journey’s End? I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights, I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in because a light is waiting for you.
kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru afureru kimochi no shizuku ga atatakaku hoho tsutau tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to I’m always by your side
The song you’ve taught me still lies within my heart. Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart. The fragment of my overflowing emotions streak down my warm cheeks. I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together. I’m always by your side.
I love you, I trust you kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga I love you, I trust you ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo soba ni iru yo
I love you, I trust you for you, I shed these tears. I love you, I trust you you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way, I’ll be with you.
I love you, I trust you kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii I love you, I trust you hikari demo yami demo I love you, I trust you kanashimi demo yorokobi demo I love you, I trust you kimi no subete wo mamoritai
I love you, I trust you I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me. I love you, I trust you be it in light or darkness. I love you, I trust you be it sadness or happiness. I love you, I trust you I want to protect your everything.
donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no hanasanaide
Even if you get lost on your way, I’ll be with you because we trust each other… Don’t let go.
Friday, March 13, 2009,5:09 AM
life is great
This is what I've been searchin for..
to live life happy..
be better and not bitter...
To accomplish and end it strong
Sunday, March 8, 2009,11:57 PM
End of OC
Im so thankful to simon for asking me to join OC!!!!!!!!
SO freaking fun!! I wan more man.. I miss alot of things over there.. Esp the people I work with.. Im starting to love RC more and MORE..
Love my managers and WILLIAM!! hahahaha garfield..
My captains are great too.. Max.. DAMN cute la.. evrytime see him i will laugh.. he got the gong and blur face.. hahahaha and act like kids at times.. Simon.. BTH him.. always eat.. still say wan to jian fei.. wtf.. I think he looks damn cute with april.. both of them.. LOL lo.. i kip calling her apple.. thnks to kuswadi.. -.-!!.. he is also another lame lame lame lame lame guy.. HE STIL HAVEN TELL ME THE ANS TO HIS RIDDLES!!
At first i was very worried i might get bullied.. but no... I HAD LOTS OF FUN!!..
hahahaha Oh man.. e onli regret.. i didnt ask that cute hsbc crew for his number or msn.. my type of friend.. super friendly and bubbly.. :D damn pai seh.. tammy almos burst me up when she told her friend im interested in him when he is onli 5 steps away.. should hv said it when he is onli a step away.. so he can hear.. HAHAHAHA!!
I miss tammy~~~~~~~~~ Im nt les pls... she said im nt romantic!!! and nt a girly girl..T.T..but she is damn fun.. at first i don reali like her as muc as i do now becoz she dont talk to me.. hahaha onli talk to april.. but after we are posted on the same level.. we talk quite alot.. she is damn slim.. and i saw her " flew " a few times when she bang into guest or the other way round.. Damn funny.. anyway.. im stil vry guilty i bang jamie.. by accident! but i didnt know e impact was that big she slam against the locker.. T.T.. heng andrew nt there..
My taxi kaki.. Ervina.. hahaha had a fairytale like mentality.. its kinda cute.. but at times its just -.- < liddat lo.. she wrk till nosebleed.. so poor thing.. and yao qing joke about her menses came from the nose instead.. she and her lan hua hua.. so shocking.. i cannot get over the way she walk and how khor said her.. its soo funny pls.. coffee aunty hehe..
OMG i saw paula creamer la.. she is THAT close to me.. SO pretty!! and i was right.. that jiyai shin won.. I should hv bet.. but i still supported paula creamer.. coz she damn pretty and she is indeed top golfer.. jiyao shin is rising.. as usual.. from wad i saw on tv.. and she will continue to be much better..
Vry happy that i think i got closer to the pple there... YEAY!! I TALK TO SAMANTHA.. hahaha some pple say she nt as friendly la.. but i think she is damn cute.. and verrry smart.. the vocab she uses always amuse me.. hahahahaah!! I didnt know that qiu han and lan ying are also the lame type until oc.. thos 2 pretty "sisters"
The guys.. omg.. are damn dirty minded... at the pantry they dirty talk till i bth.. but its damn funny.. a joke out of fruit basket.. hahahhaha.. whose banana or grapes is it?? -.-!! rotten ones.. or with pimples.. -.-!!.. Gao fei is damnnnn dirty.. the milk joke.. i think he doesnt know the term "shy".. a very naughty one..
yao qing is super different from wad i tot he would be.. hahahaha but he is still a nice boy.. help me alot during operations :D.. his hokkien full of vulgarities.. hahahaha!!!.. but a vry cute little boy.. I REFUSE TO BELIEVE HE IS OLDER THAN ME.. NO WAY..
TIMOTHY!!!!!!! hahaha apple juice~~~ the onli time i saw some expression on his face.. hahahaha is during his spillage.. LOL!! on me -.- .. but nt reali his spillage coz im the one holding the drinks.. YOUNGER than me kinda unexpected.. Im old.. MORE unexpected is that bosheng is younger than me la.. WTF!! he don look like.. and he soo damn cool.. don talk .. gd friends with marcus.. a guy who speak less than 3 sentences a day.. who onli nod or shake his head.. or "hm".. hahahaha!! the only time he say more than 10 sentences is when i ask him about his exam.. he look like gu tian le.. jus a smaller version..
Simon is getting more swollen.. HAHA look like pig.. HAHA!! but a fun and cute one.. damn funny la he.. i see him also will laugh.. and brighten up abit.. DAMN freaking sian on the first day.. I was suppose to be one the 3rd level.. with him and ZHENGYI~ my eye candy.. but then william change me to the second level.. but oh well.. overall im veryy happy on the 2nd level.. with tammy and guys.. zhenyi is so skinny! i wish i could pass some to him man.. hahaha
its shocking that april is older than me.. she look blur.. but don be deceived.. shes that master of food kopping.. HAHAA!!
I miss xinyan and chunhan too.. hahaha chunhan looks like a bimbo but her results is DAMN GOOD!!! nt 4 As okayz.. boon hock.. HAHA!! i had a great time disturbing Anand and xinyan at the bar.. hahahaa sorry la.. its jus a "fun" time.. hahaha wont do that much during wrk.. *no promise* hahaha!.. her naval piercing is nice.. i dont think i will ge tthe chance to pierce with all my fats uniting as one.. HAHA!!
i didnt know that aldrin stays so jus a traffic light away.. went home with him and to my surprise.. he talk alot!.. hahaha his kinky shirt jus expose how naughty he is.. NOT a good boy pls.. HAHA!!.. and he enlighten me that if a friend ever get drunk.. there is stil such thing as IC.. to know where ur friend actuali stays.. -.-!!.. we shared some pointers on relationship.. n i strt to find myself weird coz i dont like anybody.. hahaha its hard for me to fall in love.. as in real love.. to hv a crush its vry simple.. but love.. its a troublesome thing.. i enjoy my companionship with my family and friends now and dont think i need an intruder into my life at this period of time..
k im vry tired.. to blog.. 4 days into one entries.. omg..........
I will never forget the "illegal immigrant" feeling in the truck.. hahaha.. how does a gold course look like.. how we slack sleep and play in the pantry.. and how nice some of the riches are..
well.. i reali hope to get another OC with the same group of pple again..
Saturday, February 28, 2009,4:52 AM
love is jus a gimick
I lost faith in love.. and feelings.. is all that i see and feel an illusion i have that will generally disappear?
Love.. wad is love??
lonely obsess vain emotional?
I strt to dread watching romance.. coz its so "fake" to me..
i rather watch fantasy or watch anime.. they seem more fun..
Love is a gimick... jus like marketing..
its works under the four words " xing gan qing yuan", willingly to let the marketing gimick cheat or nicely.. guide u along..
they know how to catch ur attention.. influence u... and make u fall for it..
however.. the content is not entirely true..
The ugliness of human nature ive seen n experience quite something..
such a disappointment..
though there are still those who worth out applause but yet.. how many can u count?
greed... uncertainty.. victory... cause human to lose their innocence..
How do u tell someone still loves u..
how do u know if its nt a joke??
how do u know.. its jus a habit.. used to it.. that they no longer know how to tell.. but think they are..
Love is everywhere... sounds so familiar
True love hard to find.. kinda ironic..
To love someone... there are so many qns...
what u wan... can live with?.. gt courage?.. have faith? but again.. its irony.. if u have faith.. there wont be so many qns...
so then again...
wads love?
Saturday, February 21, 2009,6:08 AM
Birthday
YEAY!! its my birthday and im damn happy...
alot of unexpected people greeted me... like reali random pple... and alot sentosians as well...
WALAO sherlyn n bliss... actuali forgot until i hint them... BO XIM!!!
damnn happy... but waiting for his greeting... wonder if he would continue ignoring me..
but YES!!!!!!!!!!! i got it in the mrning!! hahaha he sms me.. hehe
but i was too playful to say he would get a kiss for rmbring.. n he didnt reply.. guess it scares him away.. LOL!!
Studied at Andy house... but then the weather super hot ... n im quite slack.. hahahaha
but thanks people!! for the cakes!!! though its nan chi.. but its still very delicious becoz of its from you guys...
its damn funny when bliss scream e moment i walk into the kitchen.. LOL!!
satay was damn good...
and yea had strawberry cake at home! my birthday cake :D
I attack my bro with the cream but end up its all on me... HAHAH!!
anyway u can tell im vry tired.. so i shall stop here
Tuesday, February 17, 2009,8:59 AM
For my dearest friends :D
You walk me through the rain Your warm could ease my pain When my spirit is down, I begin to fall apart I knelt down and cry so hard, its getting harder to breathe I couldn't see clearly, this storm is defeating me
But I see a shadow and when I look up... With your hands, pull me up, and we run... Side by side, you never fails to hold me tight Together we move on, searching for the light.. Side by side
**Maybe there's someday when we need to part Maybe there's someday I will break down even harder We don't know what's ahead of us There might be too much to handle or too much to fear
But/And I will never be afraid Cause when I look back I know I could still see us smiling And I will never be afraid, no never no more Cause I know no matter what My friends will always be there
My friends will always be there Deep inside I know they care All the memories we share
Monday, February 16, 2009,2:07 AM
This is wad you call goddess
BOA!!!
MY GODDESS!!!!!!!!
REALLY THE DOPESS GIRL!!!!!!!!
EIEN ” Eternity “ - BoA Translation: I’m certain that my fingers were made for touching your cheek for touching your cheek I’m certain that the shining moon is there for me and you to look at it it was only for me and you to look at it whenever i felt down you were always there by my side you always smile for me but now you are gone from the deepest part of my hands my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE in this town, Tonight I think I’m the one who is crying all the time Because you loved me I am who I am now the time that’s carried by the wind it brings back the eternity of that day Bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye At that time, about that song we always listen to it came on while we were standing at the farther corner and we shared our phones together and then suddenly you pull away and the phone comes out of my ear and I pretend to get mad our eyes eyes would meet suddenly our lips would press together you said that you will always protect me I try to reach up the navy blue sky I feel like my heart is about to explode Just hold me, one more time If I could have been honest with you This never would have happened When i wake up, everything will be a dream And then you will say bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye I was looking destructed at the people on the street while walking with you, the roads with green trees you told me, make pasta for me next time and that you will always protect me… but from the deepest part of my hands my sadness pours out in large drops, MY LOVE in this town, Tonight I think I’m the one who is crying all the time Because you loved me I am who I am now the time that’s carried by the wind it brings back the eternity of that day I try to reach up the navy blue sky I feel like my heart is about to explode Just hold me, one more time If I could have been honest with you This never would have happened When i wake up, everything will be a dream And then you will say bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye bye bye bye why did you say bye bye why did you say bye bye Romanji: Watashi no yubi wa kitto kimi no hoho ni sotto fureru tame dake ni atte fureru tame dake ni atte kagayaku tsuki wa kitto kimi to isshoni zutto miageru tame dake ni atte miageru tame daki ni attano kujikesou na toki ni itsumo tonari ni ite waratte kureta kimi wa mou inai nda poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo kaeshite Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Ano koro futari itsumo kiiteta kyoku ga futo machikado ni nagareteru iyafon katahou zutsu de kimi ga totsuzen tsuyoku hipparu kara ne chotto mimi kara hazurechatte watashi ga okoru to fuzakete fui ni kimi to me ga atte kuchibiru wo kasaneta zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo soshite mata fuzakete Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Michi iku hito wo bonyari miteita kimi to aruita puratanasu namiki kondo pasuta tsukutte tte rainenn ryokou shiyou tte zutto watashi wo mamoru tte itta noni poroporo te no hira kara koboreru kanashimi My Love konya kono machi de tabun watashi ga ichiban naiteiru kimi ni aisareta kara watashi wa watashi ni nareta toki wo hakobu kaze yo douka ano hi no eien wo Neibii buruu no sora sotto te wo nobashite miru harisakersou na mune mou ichido tada dakishimete ano toki sunao ni nareba konna koto ni naranakatta mezametara subete ga yume de atteyo soshite mata fuzakete Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye Bye Bye Bye Why did you say bye bye bye Why did you say bye bye bye
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About
Melissa Lin [Happylin]
Wanted to be Merkissa
Hair growing at 166cm
Weigh..shhhhhh too scary
Born in Venus grown up In Tampines.
I'm a Beautiful Star Pisces , and my Spaceship crash on earth on 21 feb 1990 .
Loves
Colors :Gold,Pink,Black,Grey,Purple Foods : Cakes&Cookies Movies : No Horror Idols : MELISSA THE GREAT
Dear Santa
Likes
Sexy lingerie
Triump corset
Caps
Dresses
Shoes
Bangles
Cosmetics
Bags
Ear rings
Necklaces
Food vouchers
NECKLACE WITH A SPOON AS THE PENDENT!!! Dislikes
Pink Roses
Soft toys
Figurines
Things that cannot use cannot wear cannot eat put there waste my space only
Dear Fairy Godmother
I wish for...
*Find soul in music
*Able to freestyle easily
*Strong vocal
*Express myself on stage
*Shine as a special individual
*Guitar!!!!!!
*Sweet food :D
*Spicy food :D
*SteamBoat
*Volleyball!!
*WORLD Tour!!!!!!!!!!!
*See wonders of the world with my own eyes!
*MUST VISIT ROME IN MY LIFETIME
EWWW!!!
*Being emo
*Stress
*Any injuries
*Overeating HAHA!!
*To feel that dancing is not a happy thing
*Pple to misunderstand me
*Cigarette